REcalling ~The 1st time graduate (form 5)

For me , the graduation nite itself was meaningless . It became meaningful only when we really understand why we were there.

That was the 1st time I dressed-up myself like that , I even set up my hair and had make up on my face .

When I arrived the dinner table . And there were some speeches at 1st . We took pictures with one another . But for me , it was not fun enough without them : Ah Shu , Ming, Kem , Tyng etc.

Until now I am feeling regret that they were not there with us . T_T

Anyway , when we were watching the BIG slideshow about form 5 and form 6 life in SGGS... ...
That moment , actually, was reminding me when I was in form 5 in my previos school ....and the form 5 graduation nite ... ...

Although we did not wear as formal as this time , we did not make up , we did not set our hair , and we did not go to hotel , and there was no buffet , did not have prom queens ... ...

But that was a real one , real graduation nite for me . I could hug my friends as tight as I could . We took pictures with tears and at the same time , smiling.

We sang the same song together again and again ... ... sobbing to each other again and again ... ...
And the most impostant thing was all teachers and students were involving together ... ...

We felt the love , the passion , we were unwilling to seperate with one another although we always said the opposite way that we were happy to leave our previous school but ... ... in fact... I dont think so .

Anyway ... ... form 5 has gone ... ... but the friendship is still somewhere in the air ~
Now I am having my form 6 life instead . A life that is full of challenge and stress as everyone knows .And I have to say , I am glad that I am one the members of my class !!!!!!!!!!!

I love V2 . Our class is the most awesome class ever . I wont forget all of you ~ included Ah Shu , Ming , Theen , Boon , Kem , Ai , Papa and Mama , Ling , Cia, THeng ,XIn Li, Adik and Ah Ji.................................................................................................................................... and those who make our class colourful and "sweat" as well . Hahax ~

MUax~~

~怕怕~

昨天....不！ 是昨晚才对。
第一次， 冒险....竟然晚上差不多八点这样踏巴士去找姑姑。
当然，这之前是在等巴士的。
那时天那么暗了，只有我一个人在那里坐着等巴士... ... 心理毛毛的~~~

怎知~就如往常~老天才没那么放过我！
眼见，一个半疯不颠得印度人走来巴士站这里，他的手和脚很明显的在发抖。凭我的直觉，他是故意装抖的。

他走过来时，我还故意装作忽略他，很小的时候，妈妈就教过我，遇到这些疯子时，最好是不要跟他有什么眼神接触。我已经很尽量了！！！心里真的开始怕起来~
那时只有我一个人耶！！

我紧张得把握的包包握的好紧，手里本来抱着的水罐，也被我换成反手握着，心里暗自告诉自己，要是有什么风吹草动，我不管什么三七二十一，肯定要 “一野pok晕”这个死 “颠佬”！

后来， 他竟然趴在长椅上，这样，他就变得比较靠近我了... ...因为心理压力的缘故，我本能性的坐 得很直，双脚可以说是合并和完完全全的动到地上。凭着这两点，我知道我真的好害怕， 因为据我所知，只有很紧张和心里充满压力时，人的坐姿才会是这样（永远让自己保持随时随地可以站起来逃跑的坐姿）。

那一分钟，对我来说还真难熬，忍不住，看了他一下，我的天，他在瞪着我！！用不到三秒的速度别过脸，不再看他，只是利用自己的眼尾，确保他与我的距离。

我在心中默念：巴士快到好不好，快点到嘛~~

再过一下， 我的手心和额头猛飚冷汗。 哇唠... ... 为什么这个时候没有人陪我？？！！

我忍~我忍~

接下来， 我敏感的感觉到他终于站起来了，我看着他的脚步，他走到长椅的后面，又趴了下来，在地上......继续他的发抖... ...

我也很想抖呢~

幸亏，下一秒，让我期盼已久的巴士 终于！终于！终于 到了！！那时的巴士对我来说等于 救世主！！
上到巴士上，我瞄了那个疯子一下，他站了起来，走掉了，而且，手脚没抖了，很明显，起先是为了要吓我~~

唉... ... 现在想起还心有余悸！！天~

虽然，虽然， 我承认，这样是很“鹌鹑”，可是......一个女人仔， 还是会怕的好吗... ...
唉~~~~~ 幸亏是有惊无险~~~~~~

Some people are brave to love . I think I am not .

Sometimes I really feel envy with those people who have the courage to love someone in 1st sight. They are really brave . They dare to run after what they believe that is good to them. Although there is nobody who tells them so , and there is no guarantee for their love .

I feel envy with those people who can die for their lover just because their heart are touched even for just a second.

For most of us , may be , those kind of people I have mentioned are regarded as silly or blind.
But take another look from the other side , they might be the happiest people in this world . They really look for what they want . They are brave , and never regretted for what they have sacrifice for love .

Some may think that they are not rational , perhaps too emotional.
But , undeniably , we are envy with them . Sometimes when we watch movie , we can even cry for those lovers like that , "Titanic" and "Romeo and Juliet" for instance . We are actually hoping that we can be them , we can be the hero or heroine in the movie . Right ?

Admittedly , I am , I am feeling envy with those people . The main reason is, I couldn't do something like that. I am not brave enough to do that . Or I should say ~there is nobody can make me that brave , at least for now .




Anyway ~ I love you my ... ... ... .. teddy bear !!! ~
:P

hahahahaha~ muax

~DRAMATIC AND RIDICULOUS ~

My world now seems ridiculous . I do know the reason . I do know the best way to solve this .
But , my heart tell me not to move . I dont willing to give up something important .

My life seems like going dramatically .

At 1st , my mom passed away. My dad fought with my aunt (my mom's sisters). And we moved to Penang from KL.

A few years later , surprisingly , me and my sister just knew that we have an ELDER step brother. And a step mom as well .

Yea , you might ask , how come an ELDER step brother then ?

okay let me explain , my dad and my step mom were couples 20++ years ago and then they had my step brother and afterthat they broke up and my dad was married with my mom . After my mom passed away , my dad was lonely and he met my step mom again years later .

AT 1st I liked my step mom I guess , she WAS quite nice to us. Later on I found that she wasn't sincere to us . She just want to ACT like she was nice .
She don't allow us to show our mom's photos , even in our own room.
She always complained to my dad about us . She doesn't like us . And more things she did , but I prefer not to tell . Was not an enjoyable memories anyway .

That time, frankly, I was quite dissapointed with my dad , although I said I was not .

All my friends said that I was like a cinderella . HAhahah... ... Touch wood man .Hello~ My dad is still alive , and anyway he wouldn't have large patrimony for us too . Hahaha.

Okay , what's next ?
I thought that would not be more ridiculous than that .

And in fact ... ... my dramatic fate never stop there . . . . . .

Sigh ~

*to be continued*

等你到白头

今天，忆起这首歌... ...听了很有feel ~ 唉~
问世间情为何物？ 唉~

~等你到白头~

(白发魔女传主提曲）

演唱：巫启贤/彭羚

女︰　不相恋　恨也好　

至少能一生紧记分隔了　

又碰到　

为了多一次分飞

男︰　难道要　等到都白头

　方清楚真想你

难道要

　淒美只因你

合︰　每次思念流泪　

不想再知你是谁 只等某天再重聚　

不必再管这片地 天边悠然远飞

女︰　天与地　浪与星

　从来是分开千里心与痛

　恨与痴　又怎么永缠一起

男︰　难道要　等到都白头　

方可一只一对难道爱

　都也必经过

合︰　创痛失落逃避　

不想再知你是谁 只等某天再重聚　

不必再管这片地 天边悠然远飞

PS: still feeling "lam" (cantonese) LOLx

有机会真得很想再追看白发魔女传-蔡绍芬版